Your
band sucks. Even through cell phone speakers, barely audible in a crowded
bar, she realizes this truth, but her mouth is bound by courtesy. Your band is fucking terrible. It’s all
she can think, anticipating the moment when the timer on his iPhone playlist
reaches 0:00. She no longer notices the smell of sweat, the distressing and
dank atmosphere of her surroundings, the heat, the discomfort of the wooden
stool beneath her. All other senses are overridden by the noise, the clamor of
countless other conversations around her and the I-IV-V chord progression
playing faintly underneath them. Is he
bobbing his head to his own song? He can’t be …
“What do you think”
“What do you think”
“What do I think?”
“Of the song?”
“I can’t really hear it.”
“Do you like it?”
“It’s good.”
“What do you think of this solo?”
“This is a solo?”
“Well, it’s more like a bridge
section, I guess.”
“A bridge… it’s, uh, well, you
couldn’t walk on it.”
“That’s good?”
“What’s good?”
“This solo?”
“Sure.”
“Do you, uh,
like music?”
“Of course. I
was in my high school’s choir.”
“Yeah, I’ve been doing this band since before I can remember.”
“Yeah, I’ve been doing this band since before I can remember.”
“In the womb?”
“What?”
“Were you in the
band as a fetus?”
“I don’t think
that’s possible.”
“It was a joke.”
“Oh, that’s
funny.”
I
want to have sex with you. Dirty, violent, unconstitutional sex. His eyes fight
dignity so that they may stare at her cleavage, but he manages to hold strong,
looking directly into her pupils—perhaps, creepily so. He peers through her,
the image of her breasts pasted over her face with same level of class that a
junior high student demonstrates when he spray paints a penis on the side of a
building. The world need not remind him of his indecency. He reminds himself
with each passing thought. So lonely … so
very lonely …
She searches for an out, hoping a
bomb might explode in the corner of the bar, but luck never acts in her favor.
Soon, silence takes control. She wishes he would just stare at her tits,
ejaculate into a napkin and leave, but he seems determined to impress her, to
earn something more at the end of the night. I better say something before he starts talking about his band again.
“Do you come here often?”
“Do you come here often?”
He had spent every Friday and
Saturday night here over the last two years. Not expecting to score, mind you.
He knows this place too well to have that kind of hope. Of course, he tells
her, “I’ve been here once or twice before.”
“My father brought me here once
when I was 13. Oddly enough, I was hit on then too,” she notices him blush and
moves on, “He died recently, so I’m on a sort of spiritual walkabout.”
“I’m sorry for your loss.”
“Why?”
“I think I’m supposed to be.”
“You might have met him. I think
he had a cot here. Charles Robinson, though he went by Charlie. I called him
Charles out of spite, of course.”
“Oh! Charlie! He tried to strangle me in the men’s room once,” he pauses, “He was a, uh, good man.”
“Oh! Charlie! He tried to strangle me in the men’s room once,” he pauses, “He was a, uh, good man.”
“Thanks, I know he wasn’t. He did
have a thing for choking though. When I was young, he would wake me up some
mornings by smothering me with a pillow. Only when I was just about to run out
of air did he stop. He got such a kick out of seeing me gasp.”
“Yeah, My father was kind of
asshole too. I wrote a song ab—”
“Mom always had these weird, red
marks on her neck. I never asked about them, but I started to figure it out of
course…”
“What are you trying to find?”
“Excuse me?”
“On your walkabout.”
“I don’t know. Validation about
my father’s choking fetish?”
“You think he got off while he
was strangling me?”
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“He probably did.”
“Maybe, I can accompany you on
your walkabout.”
“I’d rather you didn’t.”
“Oh…”
“Oh…”
“It’s not you. It’s, y’know, a
personal journey.”
“Of course, of course.”
“Well, I’ve got to go see a man
about a coffin.”
“Me too.”
“You too?”
“I don’t know why I said that.”
“Well, goodbye …” Shit, he said his name, didn’t he? Mark? “Mark.”
“Michael, actually. I’ll see you
around.”
He watches as she walks away,
peeling the label off his beer bottle. It had taken him two of those and a
self-inflicted punch to the groin to muster the courage to approach her. That went well. His right hand would be
Julie tonight.
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